As we open the door to new things, we find tests to our motives, expectations, and skills. As a dear friend helped me through an anxiety attack, a gift of acceptance and love reminds me that everything is as it is for a reason. Try telling THAT to my body.
Racing heart, stressed breathing, fear bubbling up from the belly, I knew this wasn't real no matter how much my body wanted to convince me it was. Fear - ego - two things used to preserve the fate of the body. We don't want to know the truth - let sleeping dogs lie.
|Who Am I?
Last year I was confronted with evidence that some of my beliefs were wrong. This had shaken my entire existence to the core. The existential fear made me feel that if I gave up this belief then I would blink out of existence.
Now having completed the long ignored novel, my goals were accomplished. And spirit had directed me to do the one thing that could shake me to the core. Spirit asked that I give up doing in favor of being.